I'm Such a Burden...

I am a burden to my parents, brothers, and sisters.
No one seems to care that I haven't left my room for a whole day.
Instead, when I just came out, everyone was frustrated.
What did I do wrong? Why do they hate seeing me?
My tears are confused in whether they should fall or stay.
So, accidentally they tripped while being confused and fell like showers.
My emotions are distressed. My mind hurts. My heart is going through pain.
What do I do? I feel lifeless. I have no one.
No friends. No family. Not even strangers.
My mind feels like going blank for a year.
I feel like fainting and never waking after then.
I can wholeheartedly say that I understand when people say:
"Reality Bites."
And then again, these cruel thoughts approach me:
"Maybe if I disappeared everyone will be happy."
"Maybe if I disappeared everyone will live to their heart's content."
If I could weigh the pain I feel, I'm pretty sure it would be heavier than a mountain.
I'm such a burden...

2 thoughts:

RainDrop said...
January 21, 2010 at 8:15 PM

heeeey.. i remember feeling the exact feeling myself.. when i was in college, a WHOLE month passed by without me seeing any1 in my family. Why? cuz i was humilated in front of the whole college plus the bazaar ppl by my own mom, cuz of my sis..

During that month, id leave to college at 7 am yep that early, and i'd go home at about 11.. too early for them and then too late for them..

But yes, again no one noticed.

One thing those yrs taught me, i love them, BUT, i can't depend on them

You may not know me personally, but u know me more than my own family does.. so, u got me as a frnd.. and maybe a sis if u'd like =)

love u

A said...
January 22, 2010 at 9:56 AM

There are so many times when I feel this way, it kills!

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