Such Hopeless Cases

It's very funny how people always expect you to initiate matters when they don't even bother doing that... And when you don't initiate matters they get mad at you... It's so funny indeed...
They disrespect you, but when it comes to apologizing, they expect you to do that... Even though it's them who are wrong... And when you do not apologize for something you didn't do, they get hurt and start all the drama... It's a funny world I live in...
They cut you off of their lives but then go around saying stuff like it's 'you' who cut them off... Like WHAT is happening here? Are the roles reversed now? I'm starting to lose hope in people's sanity... Bunch of dramatic lunatics... More like schizophrenics...
Nothing makes me laugh like that person who tells everyone to be the good person and solve issues with people, when they themselves don't do that, not even once... I kinda feel like laughing my gut out these days... What is happening to people? Very delusional indeed... I don't even think there's a sane method for approaching such people... Such hopeless cases...

What Would Happen To Me Then?!

Today I'm just not feeling okay...
I keep thinking if I ever saw you in front of me, coincidentally...
Could be in a mall, at my family's house, or beside my car on the road...
I don't know what would happen to me...
To my heart...
To my pulse...
To my brain...
Before I loved you so deeply - I have to admit - I have seen you twice, coincidentally...
Once in the emergency room, and the other time in the mall...
Even before I grew such intense feelings for you, when I saw you these couple of times, I actually froze in my place...
Couldn't move...
Couldn't blink...
Couldn't breathe...
What would happen to me now?
After I have nurtured such deep feelings for you...
After I have watered these feelings with my continuous involuntary daily thoughts of you...
What would happen to me?
It really scares me... Shakes me...
It's been a year already since I last saw you...
I want to see you, but it freaks me out...
I get hot and cold at the same time...
My extremities start to tingle and hurt...
My heart races like mad!
I'm afraid this uneasiness is getting to me...
All of this would happen if I saw you...
Then, what would happen to me if you told me what your heart wanted to say?!
What would happen to me then?!