Enough is already Enough...

I've just cried wells of tears! My eyes are bloody red! My heart is a noisy drum!
I'm so tired!!! Emotionally... Mentally... & in all aspects...
I need my friends... my mom... my brother...
I'm so sad I can't take it no more!!!
I dunno what to do with my sadness it's making me crazy!!!
I've been lying to myself more than enough!!! It's making me blind!!!
I wanna scream so loud that people would go deaf!!!
No one seems to care... not even mom!!!
Feels like I wanna strangle myself and rip off my heart and squeeeeeze it so hard until it won't feel anything anymore...
I think I'm going mad!!! This is beyond my energy... I can't control it no more...
I wanna get lost in a rain-forest... or a jungle... and live happily there with Tarzan... or Mowkley...
I need to go back to nature and abandon this material world...
Even daily chores are getting harder...
I'm so burdened...
and sad...
& lonely...