Embrace Me With Your All, Be Ready To Give It All

Next time you see me, let your heart skip a beat.
See my soul through my eyes, talk to me with no sound.
Know that I AM that person you desire.
I AM that fantasy, that reality.
I AM your air, your water, and your Earth.
I AM that land of peace, love, and happiness.
Touch my hands, feel my warm blood.
Rub my head, smell my hair, and kiss my forehead.
Next time you see me, lose your mind.
Travel to lalaland, skip in the world of butterflies.
Know that I AM your drug, your only medication.
Embrace me with your all, be ready to give it all.

Mommy Let Me Fly

Mommy let me fly...
You broke my wings, what else do you want?
That is not a good way to protect your offspring...
Let me go out there, make mistakes, learn, and grow...
I want to experience life mom...
I want to fall in love like any other bird...
Stop pushing me to the corner...
Stop pushing people away from me...
I want to be touched, felt, and dreamt about...
Stop pulling me away from the outside world...
Mommy I have dreams...
Very colorful ones...
Don't take them away from me...
I have nothing else to grab onto...
I want to go out there have friends and plant trees...
I want to do something for this world mom...
I wasn't born just to eat and sleep...
I can't take without giving something back...
Mommy take me to the doctor...
Let the doctor fix my wings...
I need to fly mom...
I need to experience life mom...
Mommy let me fly...

Please Don't Break My Heart Again

Please don't break my heart again...
Every time you break my heart,
I take a lot of time trying to collect all the pieces,
and then try to mend them back together...
Please don't break my heart again...
This time if you do, I might break forever...
I might even stop existing anymore...
Please don't break my heart again...
I'm too tired to feel anymore pain,
these sad little chambers pump with agony...
I don't want to suffer anymore,
I don't want to hurt and ache anymore...
Please don't break my heart again...
I know you will, but I just don't want to think about it...
For I hold great love for you and your presence...
Don't do that thing you always do,
Getting angry and start doing things you regret later on...
Please don't break my heart again...

Never Mend Again

I've been thinking lately to talk with a psychologist...
Or a psychiatrist...
Whatever you wanna call it...
I need a solution with my mother...
I literally can't take it in anymore...
I feel like bursting like popcorn...
Sometimes at night I wake up for no reason...
And I just can't sleep again...
Because when I try, all my brain does is think about mom...
I'm in deep mess...
She even told me not to call her 'Mom'...
I can't imagine the reasons that would make a mother act in this way with her children...
There simply are no reasons...
She always points out that I'm the one who is mistaken...
I realized she never blamed herself for anything...
I wish something will make her heart less frozen and cold...
Perhaps me dying would make her warmer and motherly...
She's ruthless... Merciless... Brutal...
I'll never recover, and my heart will never mend again...

Walls Are Still Up

Sometimes we build walls to see who cares enough to break these walls down...
But when days, weeks, and months pass by, and the wall is still up, you just feel so unwanted and blue.
That is exactly how I feel.
It really breaks my heart to see that no one cares enough to break them down.
It makes me feel unwanted, rejected, undesirable, and useless.
It makes me believe that even if I died it wouldn't matter to anyone.
It's like I'm living this life uselessly.
Is it because maybe perhaps I'm stubborn, or obsessed with testing people?!
I don't think so... Even if I do it in my head, I don't really show it externally...
So, if you put yourself in my place, what would you do?
I think you would've committed suicide long ago.

You Make Me Stutter When I Talk

I still remember the first time we saw each other...
We sat facing each other in a group discussion...
I did not really notice you...
I did not notice your sneaky stares...
Until one day you approached me...
You stood in front of me smiling...
And suddenly my heart gave a huge powerful beat...
I was heated up, and all the blood gathered in my cheeks...
And as soon as I took my eyes off yours, I couldn't sit still...
You made me discover a new world...
One which made me see everything pretty, sweet, and happy...
You told me stories with no words...
You exposed yourself to me with many stories I read through your eyes...
You made it really easy for me to understand you...
And I made it really hard for you to understand me...
You tried to unlock that metal box I kept my heart in...
And for someone like you, that really wasn't difficult...
You make me stutter when I talk...
Blush when I'm silent...
And self-conscious when I walk...
You let that little girl just come out dancing...