Leave Me ALONE!

Everyone's been so harsh on me lately...
I spend a lot of time thinking of how to please my family,
in return of my favor I got stabs all over me, not only on my back...
My heart feels so ill, tired, and miserable.
I can feel the arrhythmias occurring with every beat.
I'm holding my tears... I can't afford them falling...
It's been a long time since I was this weak,
I can remember the feeling of being so weak like it was yesterday,
and I know I do not want to experience that all over again...
Holding myself back, anger arises and I just feel like cursing...
But I won't, I can't curse, because sadly they are the most precious people...
I feel so agonized, my brain hurts from all the thinking...
My eyes are flaming, but I don't want to break again,
because fixing myself is really difficult...
Every time I build myself, someone I love will come to destroy me...
Just leave me ALONE!!! I don't need anymore drama!
I've had enough!