A friend you are... A heartless brat you are, too... even though you're both, I forgive you... For I love how you speak, react to things, and smile... I need you to prove to me you're still my friend... For I can't imagine a future without you... I can't afford losing you... You are important to me... You are one of a kind... You are what every person would want to see in a friend...
Whenever there's a feeling of someone trying to snatch you away, my childish feelings get triggered, and my jealous heart would get angry... I don't want to share you with anyone... Just let me be selfish... Just this time... And I promise you won't regret...
I need to see you daily, or else my eyes would get moisty... I need to tell you my secrets... I need to feel your care... I'm hiding my grief, and lowering my head when you're not around... My vocal cords are weak... I need them to get stronger... I don't want them to fear your presence... I love you for being a perfect person... Yes, you are perfect... For me... and to me...
When It's My Turn, There's Nobody Around...
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Every time my so called 'friends' would get into problems, get confused emotionally, or get disturbed mentally, I - and only me - would be the one to give them directions, try solving those puzzles, and even - at least - lend them my ears for hours.. and sometimes days.. well, one of them 4 years.. They'd be so overwhelmed with my grace... They'd start thanking me, and tell me they're indebted to me... and keep in touch for a week or two...
However, when it's my turn to get the support I need, suddenly there's no one around... Not even an ant... I couldn't hear but my heart breaking and falling... It would make me sad to a point where I start to hate myself... I can't remember a day when my friends threw a surprise party for me... I can't remember a day when they'd play April Fools on me... I can't remember when was the last time one of my friends would call me to hang out with me... Sometimes when all my close friends would gather together and I'm left behind, I feel like ripping myself apart... I can't understand... Why me?! I have no clue what so ever...
Can you imagine that the person who declared to everybody surrounding her that I'm her best friend didn't even text me to ask about me since 3 or 4 weeks... Am I the only loyal person around? My younger sister told me to forget her... But I can't, we're besties since 6 years... Sometimes I would feel a bit of hatred towards her neglectfulness...
People were created to need each other... We need a third ear... We need attention... We need love... We need a social life... Sometimes my sadness makes me want to curse everything around me... Even atoms... and electrons... For some reason I don't know about, when it's my turn, there's nobody around...
However, when it's my turn to get the support I need, suddenly there's no one around... Not even an ant... I couldn't hear but my heart breaking and falling... It would make me sad to a point where I start to hate myself... I can't remember a day when my friends threw a surprise party for me... I can't remember a day when they'd play April Fools on me... I can't remember when was the last time one of my friends would call me to hang out with me... Sometimes when all my close friends would gather together and I'm left behind, I feel like ripping myself apart... I can't understand... Why me?! I have no clue what so ever...
Can you imagine that the person who declared to everybody surrounding her that I'm her best friend didn't even text me to ask about me since 3 or 4 weeks... Am I the only loyal person around? My younger sister told me to forget her... But I can't, we're besties since 6 years... Sometimes I would feel a bit of hatred towards her neglectfulness...
People were created to need each other... We need a third ear... We need attention... We need love... We need a social life... Sometimes my sadness makes me want to curse everything around me... Even atoms... and electrons... For some reason I don't know about, when it's my turn, there's nobody around...
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