The King of Them All...

As I was realizing how harsh I was on you for abandoning me,
my heart vessels contracted and blood flow was obstructed...
Yes, I can really feel the pain in my chest, this pain is malignant.
My eyes seem to wander into nowhere, it's like breathing was restricted, too..
I don't want to see anyone... I'm in pain and it's stuck in my throat...
I am choking on my own pain... Pain beyond another pain...
It's like a never ending story of a heart with abnormal rhythms.. .
I used to think we all had the same way of thinking...
However, as I grew older I realized none of us were the same...
And this difference really caused me even greater pain...
Because we were unable to understand & communicate with each other...
It's really hard for me... I can't even seek help from my friend...
I do not want to burden her, knowing that she has her own hard times, too...
Why is this world so complicated... I want to cry heavily!
But I know that even crying would never compensate the pain I'm going through...
Every time I close my eyes, I feel the pain in the muscles surrounding them...
Heat, agony, and acidity... Even toxins are flowing in my blood...
Poisoning my body, and the king of them all... My heart...