Stop Suffocating Me

Dear Mother,

Don't think just because you're telling me what I'm allowed to do & what I'm not allowed to do means you're a mother.
A real mother would come talk to her child, ask about what they're doing, what they're eating, how they're sleeping at night...
A real mother would figure out something smart when her child is secretly having a problem..
A real mother wouldn't talk aggressively to her child every time she wanted.. She would try to solve problems instead of making new ones... And would stop blaming her child for their misfortune...
A real mother wouldn't spend everyday comparing her child to other children, would give her child a chance to give an explanation, and wouldn't try adding more stone to her child's heavy weighted shoulders...
Stop putting your claws into my heart and tearing it apart whenever you want to...
Stop doing all this and coming to me at the end asking why I'm pulling myself away...
Stop hurting and hurting and hurting me...
I don't love you anymore... I wouldn't take a bullet for you anymore... I won't pray for you anymore... I wouldn't ask about you anymore...
All what I'm feeling right now, dear mother, is thanks to your very well done work... You deserve everything that is coming towards you...
You're mean, selfish, rash, judgmental, close-minded, controlling, and two-faced...
I never want to become a mother like you... You are literally the worst example of a mother... I don't want you in my life anymore... Stop forcing your unworthy presence in my life... Can't you realize how much of a bad influence you have on me?! Can't you figure out that everything you do is making me a worse person than I used to be?! Can't you give it a break & stop expecting me to be your slave pet?!
Go away & let me be.... Let me breathe air... Stop suffocating me!!!!...

2 thoughts:

RainDrop said...
January 19, 2012 at 9:04 AM

u break my heart!
*hugs*

Alia said...
February 21, 2012 at 12:43 PM

It's good that you allowed yourself to erupt.. I think such matters should be discussed and resolved rather than be oppressed to the extent of making you hate your own mother
I must say, no matter what, remember where you came from
out of her own body.. we have a different perspective than our parents', you never know.. try to have your own bubble and keep praying for her

this is verse from the Quran:
وإن جاهداك على أن تشرك بي ما ليس لك به علم فلا تطعهما وصاحبهما في الدنيا معروفا

even if your parents want you to lose your religion (which is the worst thing they could ever do), you should just ignore and STILL treat them right.

I wish you all the best & I really hope God soothes things between you two.

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