I'm So Stupid

Sometimes, just randomly, I feel like crying for my friends... I think about their sorrows and how they try to walk forward in life with all the hardships. A sudden feeling of sadness covers my mind, and I just feel like crying silently for them...
I'm honestly so stupid... Did anyone ever think about my sorrows, troubles, or hardships and ever cry or feel like crying for me?! I mean seriously! Why do I spend so much time thinking about them while I do not even pass their minds except countable times a year?? Why do I need to carry around heavy memories of them, while they have already deleted the data about me from their minds?? I'm afraid one day I'll be a lonely being walking around unimpressed with the amusements of life...
First I have to cry for myself and for all the terrible things I've been through then think about those disloyal fellas that have played with my heart like they were playing Bowling or somethin'... I keep thinking that this life is just a game that I'm losing in... Where is that someone who will lend me a tough shoulder to lean and cry on... I'm not in the mood to be someone's charity case... I'm bailing out... Farewell selfish friends... Or should I say acquaintances?!